up from my brain is where I bleed...
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Searching
Refective
Enigmatic
____M.Y.S.E.L.F
My life spins outta control without football.
Currently in search for inner peace.
Finding myself furthur and furthur away from it..
____F.O.R.E.V.E.R
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Searching
Refective
Enigmatic
____M.Y.S.E.L.F
My life spins outta control without football.
Currently in search for inner peace.
Finding myself furthur and furthur away from it..
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[Saucony]
[Gaze]
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[Chuiying] [Junming] [Wilson] [Kailin]
[Raymond] [Jack] [Yiyang] [Junjie]
[Sheng Wei] [Wenkeat] [Jingying] [Yoshiki]
[Steven] [Tillerman] [Stickgal] [Link]
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[Soccernet]
[Soccerclips]
[Runnersworld]
[Saucony]
[Gaze]
[RHCP]
[Yoshiki]
[Hide]
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00:58
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
____What Have I Done?!
DAMMIT!!
I hate it. I hate this feeling. I wished it didn't come back so fast.
I had such a hard time getting out of it. I played football. I talked to people. I lie awake at night thinking about it. I cursed at it. I cursed till I sleep. I wake up feeling lost.
It has destroyed my life - damaged my dreams. It is like a horror film. Some lucky ones step out of it satisfied and happy. People like me end up badly shaken from the ordeal. And now I realise I am in one of it again...
Is it my fault?
How did I allow such a thing to happen to me again?!
Do I want it? If yes, can I handle it?
If no, can I live in oblivion? Can I pretend it's not there?
Can somebody remove this tormentor? Or is it already part of me?
Is there anybody at all?!
I cannot live like this. Let me off. I've had enough.
Don't give me this feeling if I'm not good enough. Come back only when I am worthy of it.
放过我吧...
Currently Feeling Like:
I hate it. I hate this feeling. I wished it didn't come back so fast.
I had such a hard time getting out of it. I played football. I talked to people. I lie awake at night thinking about it. I cursed at it. I cursed till I sleep. I wake up feeling lost.
It has destroyed my life - damaged my dreams. It is like a horror film. Some lucky ones step out of it satisfied and happy. People like me end up badly shaken from the ordeal. And now I realise I am in one of it again...
Is it my fault?
How did I allow such a thing to happen to me again?!
Do I want it? If yes, can I handle it?
If no, can I live in oblivion? Can I pretend it's not there?
Can somebody remove this tormentor? Or is it already part of me?
Is there anybody at all?!
I cannot live like this. Let me off. I've had enough.
Don't give me this feeling if I'm not good enough. Come back only when I am worthy of it.
放过我吧...
Currently Feeling Like:
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____T.A.G.B.O.A.R.D
