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00:10
Wednesday, April 27, 2005

____Where I Go I Just Don't Know

I love my Peugeot. My Peugeot bicycle that is. Chris gave me a lift home again. (Where else can you find a friend like that?!) I was feeling crapped up again. Yeah, exams have ended, at least for me. But then, what's next?

I've watched Hitch the other day. And then read this essay my friend sent me. Maybe I'm just another of those falling into the latest social trap. But yeah, the fact is I cannot stand being on the losing end all the time. I'm a winner. Maybe a bad winner. But when I lose, I'm a worse loser. But as most of you guessed, it's more evident my football - I'm angry most of the time.
That's besides the point. The point is, I felt lousy today.

And so I pulled out my trusty Peugeot and started pumping it up. The tyres were really deflated after one month of idling at the corner of my house. A few strong strokes of the pump got my bike ready again. Soon, I was hitting the road. I didn't have a target as to where I would go. I just took the route that didn't require me to stop most of the time, so whenever I hit junctions, I just followed the green light.

I soon found myself in Woodbridge Hospital. Yup, the mental institute. I circled round it's carpark. It was pretty eerie - a few cars, dim streetlights, no sign of anything human. I wasn't that afraid of the supernatural. I was more afraid of some crazy lunatic jumping out from the bushes. I sniggered to myself. It seems kind of comical on the second thought.

I grew tired of the mental institute and went on my way. "I'll have lotsa time there one day when I become insane." I thought to myself and I wheeled away onto the main road once again.

I just went round and round, one moment I found myself on the way to Ang Mo Kio industrial park, the next I was at Hougang Mall. But when I found myself strangely cycling along the perimeters of Woodbridge again, I decided I have to go home before I really become mad.

I will leave with this song that kept going on in my head as I cycled. The lyrics are long, I'll just leave the chorus here.

"Where I go I just don’t know
I’ve got to got to gotta take it slow
When I find my piece of mind
I’m gonna give ya some of my good time
Where I go I just don’t know
I might end up somewhere in mexico
When I find my piece of mind
I’m gonna keep it for the end of time..."

Feeling only slightly better after the ride.

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14:09
Tuesday, April 19, 2005

____Short Three and an Old Song

Just a quick entry before I get back to the notes that are piling up on my table. I have a physics open book paper tomorrow (Damn I almost forgot how to spell that word). The past year papers look horrid, but then again, they are of a different format. Hopefully I can fare better this time.

My friend sent me an old song by Hacken Lee (Li Ke Qin) - some HongKong singer. I just happened to surf around and found its lyrics. Quite a nice Cantonese song. Those who want it can MSN me and ask me for it. Here goes...

一生不变 - Hacken Lee

一幽风飞散发披肩
眼里散发一丝恨怨
象要告诉我你此生不变
眉宇间剌痛匆匆暗闪
忧忧戚戚循环不断
冷冷暖暖一片茫然
视线碰上你怎不心软
唯有狠心再多讲讲一遍

苍天不解恨怨痴心爱侣仍难如愿
分开虽不可改变但更珍惜一刻目前
可知分开越远心中对你更觉挂牵
可否知痴心一片就算分开一生不变

反反复复多次失恋
进进退退想到从前
让我再吻你吻多一遍
别了不知哪一天相见
别了不知哪一天再相见

Alright, that's about it. Hate the end. It just means I gotta hit the books again. Argh...

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03:20
Saturday, April 16, 2005

____Short Two

Just had my first paper. Like many other usual exams, the testers like to give u hope in the beginning of the paper when every question is easy. Then in the later part, they remove the blindfold from your eyes and take every tinge of hope away.

Oh well, maybe it's about time to move on. Slacked the whole day after the paper, practising ball skills. Haha... I can do Ronaldinho stuff already. Almost at least. But yeah, I'm exhausted and my back is hurting from all the exertion.

I think I have to get rid of the ball from my room.

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03:44
Friday, April 08, 2005

____Short One

My throat is sore. My head is spinning. And I'm trying to stuff more information into my brain. The exams are really close. I don't think I would have much time writing stuff for the moment.

But yeah, RHCP really rocks the world. They just have this special "heck care" style to their music. Love it.

Pressure is piling up. I do hope I get really well after exams. It will be really good to start kicking away all my frustrations and get back to what I enjoy doing most.

Recently though, someone's been getting into me. Maybe I shouldn't think so much. Too much of an irritant to think. Better save up the thinking for the upcoming papers.

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