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____Lipton - Good Things Grow

I've been wanting to put in an entry since Wednesday. Lots of stuff going through my head. Yet when I sit down and actually start to think what I want to write, the words don't flow as before. I've been having conversations with my ex-campmates lately and also hanging out a lot with them. Maybe a friend-friend relationship should just stop at the level where my campmates and I are at. We share a little care and concern but we don't probe too much. We hang out together and crap and laugh but we don't really talk much about serious stuff. Maybe back in NS, the memories will always be novel and interesting. And the same jokes can be laughed at over and over again.

Anyways, I'm sure many of you all have seen the Lipton commercial. The one where some friends meet and the narrator tells us about their plan to big business and how the brand "Lipton" helps them to achieve the public relations that drives them to success. And in the background, there's this guitar thing that goes on at intervals between the narration. It's quite a catchy commercial. When I watched it the first time, everything happened too fast and after the whole thing, I just sat and blinked and try to make out what the whole commercial was trying to say. You could say this commercial sort of stuck in the back of my head.

On Thursday, I had this conversation with Wilson. He was telling me about the purpose of life and I was arguing and trying to state my point that life is pointless. After some heated exchange of arguments, we managed to come down to this conclusion -

"People who lead the so-called hugely successful and purposeful life use PURPOSE as a cover for the actual fact that life is pretty much MEANINGLESS."

Let me explain. Wilson's "theory" is that everyone is put on earth for a purpose. While mine was that living is pointless and the reason why we do not kill ourselves is because of instinct. (I'll touch a little on instinct later on). I realised after a while, what PURPOSE meant to Wilson is the activity that a human sets out to achieve. PURPOSE differs from person to person and it is required to be "found" for different persons.

Wilson claims he found his. "for me, its a vision - an ideal of world peace. of a community full of compassion and commitment to charity and helping out those poor ppl in 3rd world countries" he says. "it is because of you fellow man. Everyone is born to alleviate another's suffering"

While I do not totally agree with him, I must admire his courage to make such a statement. And while I do not agree with him, I cannot say that I've found my own PURPOSE.

But it is,of course, okay not knowing what your PURPOSE is. Many fail to find it in their lifetime. The trick is to "find" it. Keep asking the question to yourself everyday - "What is the purpose to my life? What IS ( "is" is stressed here because there can only be ONE purpose) the reason for me being on this planet?" And maybe one day, the answer will pop out.

What's your purpose in life?
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So while I'm thankful of the little enlightenment that the conversation has given me, I'm still as lost to "What is the MEANING of life" - the WHY behind living. And this brings us back to "instinct" and my "giant ant nest" theory. "Instinct" because it's within us to procreate and "giant ant nest" is the fact that we're living in a stupid human nest (remember Lipton commercial) -

The ants come to life.
The ants grow.
They meet other ants.
They combine to work their heads off together.
They bring food to the Queen.
The Queen reproduces.
The young ants grow.
They work their heads off.
The species survives.
Living - Bad Things Blow.

Till the time when I find my own PURPOSE, and hopefully realise the actual MEANING to life, this theory remains. And I will still suffer from insanity.

up from my brain is where I bleed...

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