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____Finally An Update

Although I doubt many people read this space, I shall still address this post to all the friends who have a tad interest in my life. Sorry for not updating THAT frequently but it seems that I'm running out of issues to talk about - plus I am certainly sure many of you do not want to read about what I ate for breakfast this morning. So here's a short update.

Studies - been doing more tutorials now but skipping loads of lessons. I shan't lie and say that I'm too tired to go to school on some days. I don't really know how to put it but I think I have lost some zest (if I ever had any) in life, such that there are days I just don't feel like climbing out of bed. But while this feeling does not go away, I will still try to catch up on the never ending tutorials. The Hall fellas keep saying how hardworking I am but I keep my feet firmly on the ground because hardwork doesn't always pay. All I know is I try my best for the coming exams and hopefully I improve again from the previous semester.

Football - Well, people keep telling me that I'm improving but I don't really know for sure. The lump on my left knee still hurts but at least I can play through the pain. Fighting for place in the Hall One team is tough and while I find myself being a little more brave on the field (especially after my double sprain), I still need people to tell me exactly what to do and not just tell me I played well or "not too bad".

Friends - Have kind of lost contact with my army friends but I suppose it's that time of the year when everyone's busy with exams again. My secondary school friends are so distant now I fear meeting up with them. Whilst in the past we had many common views on certain aspects of life, I believe I have already changed so much. What if ideas clash? Do I firmly insist on my idealistic beliefs? Do I nod and "yes yes, you are right"? I don't know. I admit I'm spending a lot of time with friends in Hall. Sometimes I feel that the group of us are just individuals that are "in shit together". Other times, I appreciate their presence. Yet, I still do not know how much influence will they be in my life after I graduate. People come and go I guess.

Relationships - Nil.
Somebody: "You never like any girl before meh?"
Me: "Got. Last time."
Somebody: "Doesn't seem like it. Now don't have? In Hall?"
Me: "Got but it doesn't matter now."
I don't think I'm picky. I think I'm too engrossed with myself at the moment - I don't see myself sharing, sacrificing my time with another. Besides, I suppose I come across as being too energetic to be stable and settled.

Well, that's about all for a short update. For those who are striving to do well in any area in life, especially for the coming exams....

Never compromise your dreams.
Never settle for less than best.
Because if you aim for a C or D, chances are high you end up failing.

Of course, the above is just a reminder to myself.

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