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23:32
Wednesday, November 22, 2006

____Unsettled

A random thought jus popped by my mind and somehow, I wish I weren't that much of a pacy winger. A pacy winger's mortality is low. Just look at Giggs. He's a slowpoke. SLOWWWW. I used to feel excited to see him with the ball, but now I just yawn. Hahaha...

I should be a midfield maestro. Something like Zidane. One who uses his brains and skills to win games, not pace. I must learn not to rely so much on my pace, else I will realise that when the younger ones are faster than me, I would have nothing in my armoury to beat them. I can't imagine the day when I hang up my boots. I think it will be very sad and I wouldn't have incentive to keep fit anymore. I want longevity in the game!
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So we have all heard about this player, that player being unsettled. It generally means that there is a lot of speculation as to the future of the player and that he might have to leave his current club.

I never knew what being unsettled felt like. I always thought that speculation is all about the media and that all the player has to do is to get on with the game - keep playing well. Yet "unsettled" is what I am feeling now. I have handed in my IA report, completed my logbook, IA assessment has been done, so now I go to work just thinking about the next step.

Somehow, I am unable to focus on the projects at the workplace now and it is bugging me. When there is no motivation, the working environment get freakingly boring. And that is a good thing. I hope it is the uncertainty of the near future that is bothering me and not the fact that work is getting tough and boring. Just imagine getting bored with work after only 5 months! If 5 months of work is boring, then the next 40 years or so would be hell, and I really want to think that it is the uncertainty that is getting to me.

Being unsettled is bad for efficiency. In future, I must remind myself that questions with regard to the immediate future must be made decisively, or else lots of precious time is lost.

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21:22
Friday, November 17, 2006

____Excitement

Presenting to you the attacking midfielder,

Robin Fong -

Flair and pace,
Deception and penetration,
Takes the mickey out of defenses,
Fills them with absolute fear,
Makes them fall on their asses,
Then murders them with speed,
Was just... flamboyant

I'm so excited. It is that time of the year again. InterHall Soccer is beckoning. Shaun told me about few months ago that we will be adopting the Barcelona system of 4-3-3. And I am asked to fill one of the wingers' spot. Being given no defensive duties, my role is to tear the defence apart, assist and score goals. Hopefully I play well to keep my place.

A year ago, I was lacking in confidence, my ruptured ankle ligaments didn't allow me to play properly and I was really scared of the ball. This time round, I can't wait to get back to training. The IVP stint has made me a better player tactically, and I've been watching Manchester United's gameplay this season. It has provided me with an inspiration to play like them.

So these days, I can't stop thinking about what I'm going to do to the poor opponents. Shoule I drift in to the centre of the field? Should I drop deep? Should I take the wingback on? Should I try long shots?

Should I play like -

Zinedine Zidane? The ex-Galactico is one of the best in history. I like the way he puts his foot on the ball and move it around as if the ball is controlled by silk. The fluid movement - poetry in motion!

Ryan Giggs? The veteran winger makes opponents look stupid. One of those who can bring the ball left, right, left, right and then nutmeg the wingback. Although he tends to stick to the flanks, he virtually glides on the grass.

Kaka? He is an all-round playmaker with electric pace, flawless technique, laser vision and scores the occasional wonder goal. While he seems to lack consistency, he is still one of those who is capable of doing things that make me look on in amazement.

Wayne Rooney? I couldn't possibly leave this British Bulldog out. Epitome of determination and shows no respect to his opponents. I like the way he drops deep and link play. The best player from England in years!

I've been training for the past two months now. But I somehow feel the level of match fitness isn't there yet. Whether or not I can produce what I know I can produce on the field will very much depend on the level of fitness. If I'm tired, I really can't do much with the ball.

I must attain match fitness!!

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22:18
Sunday, November 12, 2006

____Should I...

do my FYP with the Singapore Sports Council?

I really cannot seem to decide and I need some help.

Advantages
- I know the people at SSC already.
- I have a rough idea what I would be doing.
- The chances of good grades are higher (or so my supervisor claims).
- I can start my FYP much earlier than the rest and have a longer time working on it.
- It shows some level of courage to jump into something that is pretty hard to work on.

Disadvantages
- I know the work is pretty hard to work on.
- National Stadium is going to be demolished and the working environment will change.
- The chances of good grades are higher, but it is only claimed by my supervisor.
- The equipment available might not be complete.
- It shows some level of stupidity to jump into something that is pretty hard to work on.

I need some help! Some comments? Some ideas to help me decide? Just...

Say Anything...

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00:32
Wednesday, November 01, 2006

____It is

You are not me

You don't have to feel sad

"Why? Why? Why?" I'm asked.

because I'm the one who chose this melodramatic persona

the one with insanity raging from within

the one who finds that life isn't just about going through it

who decides to end it all but wants to fight and leave a mark in others

yet wanting to end it all again after failing miserably

"Wow. That's insane."

it is...

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