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This semester is really not looking too good now. Since returning to hall in December, I realised many things have changed. Even though I was pretty much involved in a few IHG teams, I have come to realise that maybe there isn't much reason for me to stay in Hall One anymore.

Soon, the ambitions of Aik Leong and Shaun would bring them to Hall Six where the chances of capturing the coverted soccer champions medal will be higher than with Hall One. Next year it would really seem that there's no point joining the soccer team. Just take a look at this year's first team, of which Lianshi, Kenny, Mingwei, Qibin, Kaile, KengChew and Vynesh are amongst some of the final year students. So what's left now is me, Siqiang, Aloy, Junwei, Aaron and Haikel. And, surprise surprise, the current year 2 batch offering not a single player.

This sucks.

However, what has left me reeling in anguish is the situation where everyone seems to be playing the solo game now. And this is the main gist of my latest rant. There is no more coorperation, no more double-checking, no more reminders, no more urging of each other. I wouldn't really call this selfishness but maybe I have been to used to working in a group now. And since the group is seemingly torn apart, by nothing less than women, I'm really very much inclined to giving up next work year's stay in hall.

Yet, I am not ready to call it everyone else's fault. Because the situation now has left me in a more disadvantageous position than the rest. As a person who probably work better in groups, I have been left to pick up from where I stopped - alone. Indiscipline has left my work snowballing to a gigantic pile.

So the self-interrogating me has left me wondering if I had done any wrong. Or rather have not done anything right. Like maybe not becoming the one who drives the rest on. Or maybe not giving a general direction to which how the various projects and work is to be managed. Or just being obnoxious and selfish myself. Maybe nothing has changed except me.

I really don't know. Like how many other questions that I ask myself don't seem to have an answer.

Fight or flight?

The peace-loving nature in me chose the flight option. I know I cannot voice opinions out without ever getting in a rage or hurting others or just spewing a string of vulgarities. As such, to prevent the second major bust up in 2007, I chose to go home last night.

And vent it all out here.

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